I held on to my pen. As I always did. As had been my modus operandi since primary school. As required by my crippling fear of losing control. The veins on the back of my hand were pulsating. The skin on the palm of my hand turned whiter than snow; whiter than was the norm. […]Read more "Bebelplatz"
Why do I wear my heart on my sleeve for daws to peck at, you ask? Well, there’s no room in my chest, for there is the crows’ nest. To feed the young ones, how about nerves and and the occasional tendon? My eyes are so glassy, they’d be a window to – yes, what? […]Read more "Macabre"
In this day and age you can’t really be gone. You’re never really unreachable. Nothing is ever far away. Is there a place where I can just melt without someone throwing ice at me? Is there a crack I can fall through without a safety net underneath? Stop trying to help me, I want my […]Read more "It”s been like that for a while"
I try to change what I am saying I try to change what I am saying I try to change what I am saying I try to change what I am saying I try to change what I am saying I try to change what I am sayingRead more "Broken record"
The incessant dripping … … into coffee pots … into overflowing buckets on the streets … of my IV … in the bathtub, my head bleeding out A stream is mighty, you know it can crush you and drag you away forever in an instant. A single drop is but the sign of a slow […]Read more "Coffee"
Shouldn’t everything be fine right now? Perhaps it should, but it is not. Shouldn’t I be hard at work? Perhaps I should, but I am not. Shouldn’t I be smiling more? Perhaps I should, but I am not. Shouldn’t life be easier? Perhaps it should, but it is not.Read more "Shouldn’t everything be fine?"
Who knew you could break your own heart, could shatter it into a million pieces? Who knew you didn’t have to be involved with anyone other than yourself? Who knew that grey clouds would ever come as a solace? Who knew a loosened tie would free your airway up that much? Who knew something impulsive […]Read more "Who knew?"